Who Knew?!

Who knew I would be asked to be a guest author on another blog!  Next Wednesday, April 20, I will be writing a post for Lynn J. Simpson's blog, check it out at http://connectingstories.blogspot.com  What shall I write about? 

I saw my OBGYN today.  Perhaps I could write about that.  He asked me if I am having any menopausal symptoms.  When I told him what is going on in my life, he seemed happy and quickly made some notations on his laptop.  He has a perplexed look as I tell him that I am still experiencing chronic pain.  He defers quickly to muscular-skeletal issues.  Whew!  That certainly lets him off the hook! 

The problem is my medical doctor is convinced its not muscular skeletal.  In fact, they have plundered me with a vast array of tests -- x-rays, CT scans, MRIs, blood work, and sordid other tests involving long lengths of hose and a flashlight!  Sigh.  I've been to two family doctors, an internal medicine doctor, a rheumatoid specialist, two OB's, a chiropractor, acupuncturist, massage therapist, physical therapists and a dentist ...although I'm not sure that his involvement lends to an understanding of my pain but he did cause some so I thought I'd throw him in!  

The diagnosis?  A severe case of 'Pass the buck!'  "It's not my area; so not my concern.  Go see someone else."  Isn't it interesting that no one wants to be responsible for another person being in pain?  No one wants to be the one who says, "yes, I'm the one who can help (or not help) you.  And I don't know what to do."  What if it makes us feel incompetent?  Incapable?  Human?!  We'd rather refer to someone else -- pass the buck as it were, so we don't have to face our own lack of knowledge.  We don't know what is wrong and we don't know how to fix it.  And more frighteningly, we might not be able to.  We hate not knowing -- it makes us so painfully aware of our lack of control in a world that is so fraught with ambiguity.

The prescription? "They do not fear bad news; they confidently trust the Lord to care for them." Psalms 112:7.  Trust.  Such a simple word to say yet pointless unless put into action.  I choose to trust!  I choose to trust in the God who cares for me.  "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding."  Trust.